29th November will be yet again another memorable memory etched forever in my brain. After more than 11years and counting i was finally able to be there again. Its bittersweet but made heavenly possible by another one of your close buddy. Ultimately he has become one of mine too.
So here goes my 'letter' to you - Noormi. I know you wont know this and in fact some of my blogs are meant for me to re-read them at a later date. Until today no one has come close to what you have been to me. You understood me perfectly and was always there to cheer me up with your "weird but seem logical to me' reasoning. I miss you dearly and so much.
Throughout the journey and prior to that, i was eager to reach the destination but all the feelings dissipates the moment i touched the ground and we planted 3 plants that he brought along for you. I felt happy and i spoke to you. It was a release of long-long friends, it was hot and the weather was good. The environment was soothing. I was indeed - HAPPY. It surprised me.
I admit, there are times my prayers for you stopped and i didnt think about you for sometime. And with recent development that happened with this buddy of ours, im not sure if i could go through it again but if i'm this happy to meet you back after 11 years has passed, I think I'll be ok if God were to take any of us away from each other to a better place. You've prepared me without me realizing it, i think.
There are not many people that i love throughout my time, but i love you so much. I'll make it a point and try not to forget you although now i get panicked when i cant recall how you look like and the time special times we had. Somehow it doesnt matter that much anymore. I wouldnt call this a 'closure' but more of how i can confidently and surely move forward with strength to 'pay-it-forward' to others the way you had given me your love, understanding, time and above all support the best you could.
Al-Fathihah...
