Reflections

A very dear of friend of mine called and touched base with me out of the blue. The fact that he never kept in touch sent warning bells in the beginning. Surprised was an understatement. He gloated for awhile when we went our separate ways more than 5 years ago. Now, with 3 kids and a divorce on the way he suddenly thought of me and appreciated what a nice person I am.

Corny but TRUE! People come and go in my life (esp. the signifacant ones). Somehow I always bump into them when they're down on their luck. While they've gone and continued their life, mine's still as it is. To them, it looks as if its status quo. The corny part was when they assume that my arms would stretch wide open in welcome just because i'm such a 'nice' person.

I relish my past and I use the tools for my future. I've learned from mistakes which I vow not to do again (if I can help it). I would never turn a friend in need but would u blame a girl for being cautious? I trust everyone unless and if I have a reason not to. And this one particularly has many reasons for me NOT to. Nonetheless, my ears are open to receive him in kind, in the name of Friends.

Happy Holidays

Hi guys........The holidays has started for some right before X-Mas and perhaps most will be on long holidays to clear their leaves or simply just to relax.

As for a single gal like me, its natural to still be hanging around the office because (1) since everybody else is on leave, somebody has to be on standby; (2) taken for granted that we will be in town as we hardly have plans; and (3) we are the only ones who would/could cancel anything we had at a moment's notice.

Having said that, I am prepared. My birthday's around the corner.....may be I should look forward to that instead :)

The only thing that lifted my spirits today was an overseas call that came from someone I'm missing currently.

I live and work in the capital city of a major town........it should give any single adult a run for their money being around the hustle and bustle. Instead I feel alone, lonely and empty. Sigh....I need a change of scenery and I'm due for a vacation. Its almost the end of the year and my birthday's coming up. Perhaps its the thought of yet another year that's catching up and still no one to call my own :(

CLOSURE, not!

Saying goodbye is never easy esp. a good friend.

As I'm writing and watching the time, Leo's boarding the plane.

To a new place, a new life, new friends, new beginning.
While I'm here hurting.

It has been a rollercoaster and I dont take well to losing my 'rock'.
I'm just lost in my own emotions that even the Friday match (MU vs Benfica)
doesnt seem to lift my spirits.
I know I'm just feeling sorry for myself.

FAREWELL LEO

If a picture could paint a thousand tales, I would put up a blank canvas now.

Leo, there were so many things I wanted to say but I just clam up. Didnt know how to act or react. It has been a good 10 years since I first met u and now its time for you to move on. Bon Voyage.......

p/s Who's gonna make me laugh now :((

One never needs their humor as much as when they argue with a fool.

How do u really mend a broken heart?
Time will heal? Take a vacation? Go shopping?
Lifestyle change? Pick up a hobby? Find a new mate?

So many choices but not even one stand up to what you want really want to do.
Crawl in deeper in bed and wish that everything was a nightmare.

Or the least, (initially) do all kinds of activities and self-healing process to forget the pain
(I call it closure)

The worst part is, even after you've done all of the above,
the hollow sinking feeling of emptiness still lingers and the hurt actually felt real in your chest!!! I kid u not........... Its bad enough that your moral support group think that once you've had your 'closure', you could move on and perk up as natural as the sun rises..........

Yes, I definitely know that picking up the pieces is a lengthy process that no one can actually help u with. Nonetheless, surrounding yourself with the right energy makes it easier to move on. The world doesnt moves around one particular person and things do happen for a reason.

So this is how I can sum up................
Count your blessings and when you're wiser,
you have better control of the choices you make in the future.

P/s Still didnt make it feel any less painful :((