Brand New Year, Same 'Ol Stuff

I'm restless and feeling lonely. I'm at the top of my game and still felt loss. I'm still unsure of how to pin to any particular reason. One things for sure, i cant stand being alone without my routine and still need to learn how to be comfortable being by myself. How? I've been toying with fresh new start but just scared stiff of knowing the unknown. I hate it and am still unsure of how to move forward. I would like the routine that i've known but snatched away from me in a blink. May be it wasnt meant for me???? Sigh.......